All but now

Seize the day, seize the hour!

I will be what I will be.

 
T. S. Eliot @ 6002-01-03 14:03

S'io credesse che mia resposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse,
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti respondo.



Let us go then, you and I,
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherized upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an over whelming question...
Oh, do not ask, "What is it?"
Let us go and make our visit.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of MIchelangelo.

The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the windows-panes,
The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the windows-panes
Licked its tougue into the corners of the evening,
Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains,
Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.

And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street,
Rubbing its back upon the windows-panes;
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michlangelo.

And indeed there will be time
To wonder, "Do I dare?" and, "Do I dare?"
Time to turn back and desced the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair--
[They will say: "How his hair is groing thin!"]
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin--
[They will say: "But how his arms and legs are thin!"]
Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
for decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.

For I have known them all already, known them all:--
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dyihng with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?

And I have known the eyes already, known them all--
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?

And I have known the arms already, Known them all--
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
[But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!]
Is it perfume from a dress
That makes me so digress?
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
And should I then presume?
And how should I begin?
......
Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets
And watched the smoke that reses from the pipes
Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?...

I should have been a pair of ragged claws
Scuttling across the floors of silent seas.

......

And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!
Smothed by long fingers, 
Asleep...tired...or it malingers,
Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me.
Should I, after tea and cakes and ices,
Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?
But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed,
Though I have seen my head [grown slightly bald] brought in upon a platter,
I am no prophet--and here's no great matter;
I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,
And in short, I was afraid.

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question,
To say: "I am Lazarus, come from the dead
Come abck to tell you all, I shall tell you all"--
If one, settling a pillow by her head,
Should say:"That is not what I meant at all.
That is not it, at all."

And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while, 
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor--
And this, and so much more?--
It is impossible to say just what I mean!
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen:
Would it have been worth while
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
And turning toward the window, should say:
"That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all."

......

No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
Am an attendant lord, one that will do
To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,
Deferential, glad to be of use,
Politic, cautious, and meticulous;
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse
At times, indeed, almost ridculous--
Almost, at times, the Fool.

I grow old...I grow old...
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peech?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.

We have lingered in the chamber of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.



 
山野村夫 @ 2006-08-03 00:26

I am still alive, thank you, all is going on well. I tell you all, I should tell you all...


 
山野村夫 @ 2006-03-25 15:12

I do have a lot to say to express myself. Time never grants me too much out of it.

Yesterday a movie was shown in +5, 101. It is called "Gentlemen Prefer Blondes". Basic principles: men and women exchange what they have which the other sex is going after: wealth with pretty faces. That is a good deal. Exactly a wonderful one. For the Creator know the defects of both sexes, and provided them the previliges that the other sex desires.

Why should a woman want a man who could dispense her a diamond? This sinlge reason is that it is the woman's responsibility to look for a stable financial creditor so that her offsprings would survive. Why then, should a man want a woman with pretty faces? The reason is deeply rooted in their genes: to find a better gene set for his offsprings. All creatures in this world is doing the same thing: to do their best to their offsprings. And that is all human affairs are about.

Nothing more than this reveals the truth. Though this sounds terrifying, but you have to accept the truth. No other way round could well explain the permissive cause of love affairs or others. I took a realist standpoint of view. Materialism, and realism is the leitmotif of our world.

At least up to now, no sign of shifting the realist is present. So we just keep up with the Jonesses.
Forget about all, remember what you are doing. There should be no one viewing my blog now.


 
山野村夫 @ 2005-11-25 19:37

Day after day, the dates come and go, but leave no trace in me, not even a single touch. Though undearable, no effores made to alter the course, and I see myself as falling through a tunnel with no  ends. You may not even know where you are to go end , 'cause this one is so large, you cannot touch it.  I know the past month has many stroies. 

The first lecture since school, and created an occasion, which till now has recurred three times, the lastest of which being the 22nd of November. And I shall not forget all the three. I thought this may not be again, but it just recourred, esp. when the expectation was about to end. It did not want to let go of me. I know the unrealistic nature of the fantacies.


 
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